i feel really weird today.. I have been playing rediculous amounts of World of Warcraft lately so i havnt really thought about real life too much. But after going shopping i was chatting to Rich and we got onto some really philosophical conversation about all sorts. And now i feel really down. Its just brought to light lots of things that i was ignoring really. So ive decided to leave world of warcraft alone for a few days and try to put my mind into order. I just feel like ive made the worst mistake of my life and its too late to do anything about it and if i hadnt done it things would most probably be little different. But i feel like i should be depressed.. but i dont want to be depressed atall. I dont like feeling sorry for myself, its self indulgent bullshit really. So im going to stay away from the games and try to do something else for a couple of days.. and hopefuly ill feel better..

On other notes uni seems to be fine. Although ive still had very little contact with my elusive flatmates this year :S Ah well never mind, the important thing is that i finish this course.. and then think about what i want to do next. Although i suspect im gonna be totally lost, so ill probably not do anything atall for a few months.

Kayleigh has the net now so i get to speak to her sometimes on msn which is nice :D Im sure i totally shouldnt miss her so much after this much time but i still do :( she was a huge part of my life through college :)

anyways enough waffling.. need to tidy my flat